Saturday, December 27, 2008

"We're gonna be okay, right?"

We all have some standard lines we repeat in our lives. Some are said hastily, just to pass the time, make conversation, whatever. (Huh. "Whatever" is definitely one of the standard lines people use.) Others have deeper meanings - the inside jokes, the sweet nothings.

One of my standard lines to Matt is the title of this post. "We're gonna be okay, right?" It feels like we've experienced a bit more change in our 5 years of marriage than is typical. 5 different living situations in 3 states. 10 plus job situations- the plus being several of Matt's part time gigs. Maybe more churches than we should have been through...

I hope to be a strong, confident woman, but I still ask that question, seeking reassurance. Usually when I ask, Matt answers, "yeah", and we move on. Today, he added, "But that's not really the point." During the quiet moments of this Christmas season, I'd already been thinking something generally along those lines, and Matt put it to words. Perhaps it's the wonder and exhaustion and total enthrallment of having Cadence in our lives that's made me think more seriously about "the point." And the point is definitely not me being okay.

Christmas is supposed to be all about "the point" - God's complete love and unconditional mercy presented to us in a very unusual and shockingly personal manner. I'm afraid I've missed the point more than I've gotten it. Tonight, though, I'm thankful for the reassurance that we will be okay - even better than just "okay" - God works and promises and offers REDEMPTION.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Cadence's Christmas Finery

Cadence has a lot of clothes. Anyone who has seen her closet knows this is one well-dressed baby. This is good because she also frequently blows out her diapers and messes up whatever she's wearing. It's a rare day that she's wearing the same thing at bedtime that she was wearing that morning.

But I, lots of clothes equals lots of holiday clothes! Last Sunday she wore a red velvet romper made by her Dassa, and this Sunday she wore her green velvet dress from Aunt Pami. She's also styling her first pair of black patent leather mary janes!

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

12 weeks!

Cadence is 12 weeks old! It's gone by so quickly. Despite the cold/congestion she and I are suffering from, she continues to be a charmer and is doing some cool new things.

She always smiles at me in the mornings now.
She's lost most of her hair, except a little mohawk on top - here styled by her Uncle Matty during his Thanksgiving visit.

She rolled over the other day, which I think was just luck - we'll see if she can do it again sometime soon. She likes to hold her rattles and was fascinated by her cloth book this weekend.

I am not crazy about working and being away from her. I guess that is to be expected. It's frustrating that she is ready for bed not long after I get home. We're making the most of the time we do have together, and I think that's the best any parent can do, right?