When I was growing up, I don't think I ever thought that I would be a "Mrs." I mean, I guess I assumed I would get married, but I thought I would be a "Ms." It just seemed more fair. If guys don't have something in front of their name that indicates their marital status, why should girls have one? After I was married, I think it felt a little silly to call myself "Mrs." Why should I have to differentiate myself from single friends and co-workers? Was it that important?
This wasn't really an issue until we moved here. In Tampa, no one called me "Mrs." Everyone just called me Maureen. At work, at school, at church. Now, much of my identity when I work (in the library and as a substitute in the classroom) is tied to that "Mrs." No one would know who I was outside of my attachment to Matt, the chorus teacher. In a school environment, I have to have some sort of honorarium (is that what it's called?) in front of my last name, and, because of my attachment to Matt, it has to be "Mrs." That's how I volunteer my name now. One particularly dark night as I was walking home from the library, a student mistook me for another student from a distance. "Carrie? Is that Carrie?" he called. "No." I called back. "Well, who is it?" he replied. "Mrs. -----*!" I called with a laugh, surprised that I have come to define myself in such a way.
On a side note, I also wasn't sure I would take my husband's last name. I liked my maiden name. It was unique and still fairly easy to spell. It was attached to my heritage and my family. Why should a girl have to give that up and not a guy? I remember one of my third grade teachers telling us that when she and her husband got married, they picked a new last name for both of them. I thought that was pretty cool. Somehow, planning to keep my name became out of the question, probably because of how traditional Matt's family can be. A woman with a master's degree is kind of revolutionary and Matt's brother's ponytail will probably never be forgiven, so I certainly couldn't expect to be able to explain to them that I was not planning on becoming a -----*, as they assumed. So I turned my old name into my middle name, and maybe I'll weasel it into the kid's names too. (If we have kids. Someday, down the road.)
Life is what happens when you are making other plans, right? So I ended up married at 23, with a new name, and a big fat "Mrs." attached to the front. And deliriously happy about the whole thing.
Of course, Matt and I both wear wedding rings, and sometimes I wear my engagement ring. Clearly, I care for people to know I'm married. Taken. Attached. In love and loved in return.
Matt and I both looked at the pictures from the Valentine's Banquet and thought, Wow. We look old. Not in the sense that we are wrinkly or grey-haired. Just adult. Appropriate for a "Mrs.", I suppose. :-)
*Although, I 'm not sure much of anyone reads this blog besides family and friends, I've read enough stalker news reports to not want to list my real name.